by Jason Remfrey

 

Admission

Damaged heart I had
That sent me into ill
Darkness enveloped me
With confusion I was filled

Madness it enshrined me
Help needed from above
Telephone to guide me
So far away from love

Friend he took me in
All the way to Wellington
Hospital I was put in
I thought that I had sinned

Medication they gave me
I’d hide it under tongue
They knew none the better
So I was there for three whole months

Delusions spun around
End of world had come
Little did I know
That healing had begun

 

Relapse

Quit my job I did
When others said I was wrong
Still I had my guidance
I thought I was Gods Son

Organic food I ate
Travelled far by foot
Karma was my enemy
I was writing a new book

Conversation not entered
Questions only would I answer
Gods command was unquestionable
Not long though did it last for

Hospital for me
Non compliant again
But this time I was out
This time I was fine

Soon after at the station
I had my revelation
Ecstasy and bliss
I had received Gods kiss

 

Depression

Not able to wash a glass
I’d just used
It just seemed all too much
My confidence was bruised

Songs they had no meaning
And they gave me no joy
Music lacked its lustre
Oh how it used to buoy

Suicide I thought of
Thought I had done wrong
Against Gods Creation
I wouldn’t need wait long

Before it all would lift
Eight months in all
But dark times they were
So much I had to toil

Much karma did I lose
For pain and suffering
I wouldn’t want it back though
It’s like holding the One Ring

 

Elevation

Crazy over women
Delusions of grandeur
Out all night
My senses I pandered

Never felt so good
Things looked bright
How was I to know
Reality was out of sight

People I let down
Although I was creative
Riding high I was
To others though destructive

In the cells I ended
Miles away from home
He’s in hospital again
People must have groaned

Finally got my jab
That brought me back to earth
No more hiding pills
Lesson I had learnt

 

Stability

I guess it is the jab
To be on from now on
Pills they just don’t work
Gee it took so long

Mood is flat
But now I’m well
No longer swayed
By madness’s spell

Now I just wait
For my time to come
When in my heart
God’s song is sung